We needed help.
May 23rd 2019 "Different med, almost 2 weeks in and also trying Ambien. Took a day off and wanted a teacher friend of mine to pray for him. She invited us in to her classroom and told us about how she believes her husband can help Adam. She prayed and Jesus, you let Adam know you were in our midst. He cried like he hadn't in a while. Something he needed to do. I write because I want to remember what you're doing, God. Feelings lately are confusing, frustrated, a little sad, a bit hopeful. Monday evening both Adam and I just felt hopeless, a bit stuck. We were left speechless. Both not knowing what in the world to do. This seems like its all out of our hands. I'm not sure how much lower we can go. Adam constantly explains to me how he's feeling, how his mind is not working. I see desperation. Then I get frustrated not knowing what to do, literally like feeling I want to hit my head on a table. We go back and forth praying hard, hoping one day we will ...